Once again, a break from school nears it's end and I feel that I've made a mistake in not traveling to Alaska. I could have made arrangements to stay with my father all summer, to collect myself and have a chance to be outdoorsy and do something exciting. Once again, though, I decided that I needed to settle down and get a job. Also like last time I got a job, though, here I am, with no money, and somewhat frustrated.

I'm trying to not make a to-do list, or even a "things I want to do" list, because I always end up feeling guilty when I haven't done any of it, and it doesn't help me to be productive, really, but I need to stop just letting things happen to me because I'm unable to articulate what I want. My plan is to state some sort of sloppy blueprint for myself for what I'd like to be doing in maybe six-months time.

If, in the next three-to-four weeks, I'm still getting "cut" from work early, and/or I'm not being scheduled to train for a new position, I need to find a new or second job.

I need to seriously consider learning to drive again.

I'd like to save up enough money to be able to go to Alaska over my winter break.

I'd like to study abroad or do a student exchange during the Spring semester. If I can study abroad at that time, then I need to start applying for scholarships as soon as I find out that I'll be able to apply for the program I want to apply for. If not, I'd like to consider doing the student exchange at that school in Maryland or maybe another state... up there... maybe, for that semester. Or maybe not do any of that and just wait to study abroad next August -- except then I'm not sure the best time to start looking into doing some internships.

I should probably talk to my academic advisor. Or at least meet him. Probably pretty soon.

I need to start exercising again. And being busy with having a life.

And maybe make some new friends.

And start waking up earlier.

And stop staying up so late.

And start being more positive and not making stupid lists like this.
but maybe this will be helpful
maybe I should do this more often